Foot prints in the sky…

After 8 hours of the day program (and a month of spiraling) my wife and I took a 2.77 mile walk at one of our favorite parks to walk in. On this walk the clouds in the sky resembled a footprint. I was then reminded of that classic poem Footprints in the sand

…”My precious child, I love you and will never leave you
Never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you.”…

and that song Spirit in the sky

…”Prepare yourself you know it’s a must
Gotta have a friend in Jesus”…

it was a lovely 50 minute walk. Since she’s been home there has been a smile of relief plastered on her face. She also had an interview lined for an activities assistant position. Something she had originally considered 4 years ago but they only offered part time. If she doesn’t get it she will find something else. What she won’t do unless the job search takes longer is return to her current job which has been the bulk of her stress which ignited this spiral.

Also, a fellow blogger offered advice to me about seeking therapy specifically as a spouse of a mentally ill person. Well wouldn’t you know it, but that is offered in her day program plan of action so I can make sure there isn’t a relapse.

I am down for that immensely. I know you meant well Kathy, but sometimes a person needs to take their own path. 😁


To the moon (For Jessica)…

Update: My wife is well enough to be proactive in her situation. She has checked herself into an outpatient day program for the next two weeks. It is a welcome bit of relief for me and hopefully exactly what she needs. I am grateful we have some money in savings to cover next months rent, unless her generous parents chip in her half. Either way, getting that text in the middle of my day helped tear down the temporary wall I put up just yesterday. I am grateful to God and family and friends looking out for us.

Here’s another dope track (which with the right sound combos opens a chorus to add to the piece. I give you: TO THE MOON (For Jessica)

Coming out of the dark as sung by Gloria Estefan…

The espinela is a Spanish poetic form with two stanzas and four end rhymes across 10 lines. It’s named after poet Vincente Espinel, who is credited with inventing it. Here are the guidelines:

  • First stanza has four lines.
  • Second stanza has six lines.
  • Eight syllables per line.
  • Rhyme scheme is abba/accddc

On the shore hands entwined we lie
The glare of the sun in our eyes
She cracks a smile to my surprise
Nor have I heard a single cry

 Facial caress I do apply
Change the mood from sorrow to bliss
Self harm thoughts she so does dismiss a calmness about the air
The lord above answered prayer
My love and faith squashed her conflicts

**My wife had off today, and what a glorious change in mood compared to the last few weeks. Yesterday being a culmination of the worst of it. I am grateful to friends and family online and off who offered support and prayers...she has got to keep the momentum in high gear**