Swimming against the tide…

**NOTE: THIS POEM ORIGINALLY WRITTEN IN JULY IS NOW PART OF A COLLABORATION AT https://skepticskaddish.com/2022/10/04/ebb-or-tide/

A Nonce Style poem, is a poem that doesn’t already exist. These are my rules for The Snyder Nonce.

six syllables in the title of the poem and ten syllables per line for the first four lines, the poem is 11 lines long and the 2nd and 10th line are the same. Lines 3-8 have a rhyme scheme of ababaa


She swam against the tide that was too strong
Found herself nearly drowned in the process
He told her to continue to hold on
She could barely grab a hold of his hand
Her sullen expression, was a bit withdrawn
He pushed himself through no man's land
Refusing to let Satan collect his pawn
Refusing to let her feelings be forgone
They both went under yet hand in hand
Found herself nearly drowned in the process
But the power of faith washed them ashore, to live another day once more

**My wife has been spiraling, our term for when her bi-polar disorder and my anxiety/depression are way out of control. At the moment, I thank God that I am currently feet firmly planted under a ray of sunshine, not a dark cloud in sight. She has been stressed immensely as of late coming from a lot of different angles. She had urges to cut herself, but has not acted upon them. I don't want to have to admit her for the third time in 12 years, so I am praying that she somehow finds an opportunity to step into the light.**

Foot prints in the sky…

After 8 hours of the day program (and a month of spiraling) my wife and I took a 2.77 mile walk at one of our favorite parks to walk in. On this walk the clouds in the sky resembled a footprint. I was then reminded of that classic poem Footprints in the sand

…”My precious child, I love you and will never leave you
Never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you.”…

and that song Spirit in the sky

…”Prepare yourself you know it’s a must
Gotta have a friend in Jesus”…

it was a lovely 50 minute walk. Since she’s been home there has been a smile of relief plastered on her face. She also had an interview lined for an activities assistant position. Something she had originally considered 4 years ago but they only offered part time. If she doesn’t get it she will find something else. What she won’t do unless the job search takes longer is return to her current job which has been the bulk of her stress which ignited this spiral.

Also, a fellow blogger offered advice to me about seeking therapy specifically as a spouse of a mentally ill person. Well wouldn’t you know it, but that is offered in her day program plan of action so I can make sure there isn’t a relapse.

I am down for that immensely. I know you meant well Kathy, but sometimes a person needs to take their own path. 😁