Ok, on April 7th I was feeling like shit. Big time !, it’s bad enough with social distancing in place I couldn’t actually celebrate my birthday in style. A milestone birthday, 50 fucking years ! For the last 5 years I considered throwing a big bash like I did for 40, 35 & 30. But then this little pandemic entered our lives and then I got sick with this damn virus that my birthday really sucked! This is the food I attempted to enjoy. It was supposed to be my splurge meal after months of hard work to lose 40 pounds.
I had also written a letter to my future self on October 14, 2018
Dear Me at 50:
Do you still live in the apartment ? Unfortunately yes we do 😦
Do you have another pet ? Nope, just our loving little stinker Nigel P. Kitty
Have you reached 165 lbs (this has been a long time goal) ? No, but I did lose 40 lbs on WW and am about to kiss the 300’s good-bye forever 🙂
Are you working at a new job ? I only wish. Even though I haven’t exactly been the team player in regards to being a fan of where I work, I will say I have a new found respect for the new president of the company. The man has set out to personally reach out to me via text on the phone to keep checking in on me since testing positive. The previous president (currently just the owner) had a real awful warped sense of humor and I really hated working for him (Also Mormon based company and previous president was always about bringing prayer into the workplace, the problem there was in Utah it may have been the norm, in Pennsylvania not everyone is religious.) Nate Cothran is an incredibly compassionate human being that I am proud to work for. Although, I do still want to find a different job. The company has been closed since March 26th, but we’ve continued to be paid with full benefits. The Generosity of this company is astounding.
Have you and Jess adopted any children ? I really have no clue why I decided to ask myself this, but since day one of our relationship (Oct 2, 2010) we both decided to not either procreate or adopt. So, a big fat NO.
Does Jess ave her own health benefits ? Nope, still riding my coat tails. She works per diem as a caregiver mainly because she can set her own hours. She tried full time but you have no choice in your schedule and you are overworked physically and emotionally.
Are you still listening to WDIY & BBC Radio (WDIY not so much anymore) but still actively listen to both Craig Charles & Trevor Nelson on BBC 6 & 2, and The Scott Mills Podcast on BBC 1.
What about podcasts ? Are you still listening to: Ear Hustle (Yes), Unexpected Fluids (No), All Killa No Filla (No), Grusome Magazine (No), Cinepunx (Yes) & Horror Business (Yes)
Are you still supporting Cinepunx through patreon ? Nope, too many empty unfulfilled promises on their various price tiers.
Are you still blogging & being creative ? Of course, but now doing two blogs my flag ship A Prolific Potpourri & a Photography Blog and trying to be an arts editor on a creative collective called The Finest Example. I seem to not have the chops to entice artists/photographers I dig because no one ever seems to email me, although I do greatly appreciate the few who have. The last time I posted a we need you post, a bunch of people liked it but not one of those people responded, I have even at times asked artists I follow if they would be interested to no avail 😦
Creatively at the moment, I am drawing and painting cats, birds, plants & dancers.
Have you and Jess traveled to anymore states ? Delaware, New York State, sadly we were set to visit Massachusetts for our 7th Wedding Anniversary next Month but I don’t expect us to travel again until there is a vaccine in place.
Are you facing any serious illness ? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA WHAT WAS I PROPHETIC ? Yeah, I managed to get this damn corona virus.
Is your nephew Lucas driving ? He probably wishes he was. My nephew has ADHD and a learning disability he thought it was hilarious when we tried to find TP and I don’t think the seriousness of the new normal hit him till his Uncle got sick.
Are Donnie (My Brother) and Earl (My Brother in law) still living in Newberg? Yup although it seemed like they were on the verge of moving to Florida always vacationing on a time share, but it seems they don’t plan to move. My brother is still working for the county although possibly come June when he is 55 he may retire
Is Donnie still wearing his hair long ? You ? Yeah, he should cut it though i think my bro would look better if he adopted my style which is usually a skin fade with a hard part on the left and his hair is unnaturally black where as mine is partially sexy gray (my wife wishes it was full sexy gray 😉 )
Is Dad still alive ? Sadly no. I do miss him and am still bummed that his widow (who i never considered my Step Mom and don’t talk to at all these days) never had a proper memorial for him and have no clue if and when that will ever happen.
Are you still seeing Jen in therapy ? Well I was till the lock down, but if we do have a therapy session it has to be via the phone.
Are you clean shaven or have a mustache ? At the moment I am scruffy because I haven’t left the apartment in weeks, so who gives a shit how i look, well my wife does she hates scruffy face LOL
Are you happy ? Ya know despite all the madness in our world, I am overjoyed 🙂
Lastly, did you celebrate your 50th ? Yeah but as I stated above, on the day itself it really sucked. So we decided to do a do over yesterday on April 15th with another pizza meal that I was actually able to completely enjoy.
Sincerely, me age 48