Having rejoined WW recently, what a challenge it is when you decide to eat something out. Yesterday I had to do eight hours of makeup time for my job. Because it’s really hard for me to do any kind of OT during the work week and still function I chose to work on a Saturday.
Wanting to have some semblance of a normal Saturday I chose to get up at 3 am to work 4 am-Noon. Granted that’s far from a normal day. Anyways, I got up and dragged myself out of bed at 3 am and somehow made and ate my usual breakfast. Knowing that after 4 hours of early morning work I would need more than my usual food of choice on my 1st 10 minute break (usually a tin of Squid and 18 ounces of water), Saturday on the other hand I ate a tin of squid with a peanut butter & strawberry sandwich, a bag of Salsa Sun Chips and 36 oz water on a 20 minute break. I thought it would be a saving grace but I have to say the weird sleep pattern, despite what I ate, I was working on fumes anyways. By the time the 8 hours ended instead of going home for lunch, I got a sub from Subway.
I ordered a 6 inch (Although my fat mind desperately wanted the 12 inch and apparently my mind gave off that vibe to the girl making the sandwich because even though I clearly said 6 inches, she looked at me and said a Foot long ?) Italian BMT on Italian Herb & Cheese with Tomato, Onion, Black Olives, Hot Peppers, Provolone with a soaking of vinegar & a bottle of water. I ate it in the car and then drove home. That freaking sub was like 14 damn points and wiped out my daily points so I had 3 left. Surely not enough to eat dinner. But I did and went over 😦
Then to make matter’s worse, as soon as my wife left for her shift today..I went right back into binge mode. Sigh Yeah yeah, I don’t want to say a bad day and tomorrow you can get back on track. Tired of falling off and getting back up, it can be at times incredibly hard to have, keep and use the willpower I know I possess.
Also the month of February sucked in regards to feeling healthy (of course the anxiety causing covid 19 doesn’t help) that I will finally get back to the gym after a bit of a hiatus.