Song Lyric Sunday (Two Gut Punches)…

Two songs that offer a wallop and define moments of my life

This is my contribution to Song Lyric Sunday for Jim Adams’s blog. This week’s prompt…Come/Go/Leave/Stay

Let you down by NF

This is probably the only rap song that ever felt personal. This song is the epitome of my adult relationship with my late dad prior to the last six months of his life. Especially the line about putting on a fake face when visiting. Gut wrenching for sure

Songwriters: Tommee Profitt / Nate Feuerstein

Feels like we’re on the edge right now
I wish that I could say I’m proud
I’m sorry that I let you down
Let you down
All these voices in my head get loud
I wish that I could shut them out
I’m sorry that I let you down
L-l-let you down Yeah, I guess I’m a disappointment
Doing everything I can, I don’t wanna make you disappointed
It’s annoying
I just wanna make you feel like everything I ever did wasn’t ever tryna make an issue for you
But, I guess the more you
Thought about everything, you were never even wrong in the first place, right?
Yeah, I’ma just ignore you
Walking towards you, with my head down, lookin’ at the ground, I’m embarrassed for you
Paranoia, what did I do wrong this time? That’s parents for you
Very loyal?
Shoulda had my back, but you put a knife in it, my hands are full
What else should I carry for you?
I cared for you, but Feels like we’re on the edge right now
I wish that I could say I’m proud
I’m sorry that I let you down
L-l-let you down
All these voices in my head get loud
I wish that I could shut them out
I’m sorry that I let you down
L-l-let you down Yeah, you don’t wanna make this work
You just wanna make this worse
Want me to listen to you
But you don’t ever hear my words
You don’t wanna know my hurt, yet
Let me guess you want an apology, probably
How can we keep going at a rate like this?
We can’t, so I guess I’ma have to leave
Please don’t come after me
I just wanna be alone right now, I don’t really wanna think at all
Go ahead, just drink it off
Both know you’re gonna call tomorrow like nothing’s wrong
Ain’t that what you always do?
I feel like every time I talk to you, you’re in an awful mood
What else can I offer you?
There’s nothing left right now, I gave it all to you Feels like we’re on the edge right now
I wish that I could say I’m proud
I’m sorry that I let you down
L-l-let you down
All these voices in my head get loud
I wish that I could shut them out
I’m sorry that I let you down
L-l-let you down Yeah, don’t talk down to me
That’s not gonna work now
Packed all my clothes and I moved out
I don’t even wanna go to your house
Everytime I sit on that couch
I feel like you lecture me
Eventually, I bet that we
Could have made this work and probably woulda figured things out
But I guess that I’m a letdown
But it’s cool, I checked out
Oh, you wanna be friends now?
Okay, let’s put my fake face on and pretend now
Sit around and talk about the good times
That didn’t even happen
I mean, why are you laughing?
Must have missed that joke
Let me see if I can find a reaction
No, but at least you’re happy Feels like we’re on the edge right now
I wish that I could say I’m proud
I’m sorry that I let you down
Oh, I let you down
All these voices in my head get loud
And I wish that I could shut them out
I’m sorry that I let you down
Oh, let you down I’m sorry
I’m so sorry now
I’m sorry
That I let you down

Gone by The Cure

Robert Smith of The Cure is no stranger to mental illness. The man suffers from depression. Depression seems to be an ongoing theme is many Cure songs, but this song is the most direct. Granted I am more prone to anxiety over depression but again, wow, so on the mark. But what is so different about this song is that it sounds like putting on a happy face to mask what’s really going on inside.

Songwriters: Robert James Smith / Simon Gallup / Roger O’donnell / Perry Bamonte / Jason Toop Cooper

Oh you know how it is
Wake up feeling blue
And everything that could be wrong is
Including you
Black clouds and rain and pain in your head
And all you want to do is stay in bed But if you do that you’ll be missing the world
Because it doesn’t stop turning whatever you heard
If you do that you’ll be missing the world
You have to get up get out and get gone Yeah you know how it is
Wake up feeling green
Sick as a dog and six times as mean
You don’t want to sing you don’t want to play
You don’t want to swing you don’t want to sway
All you want to do is nothing
On a day like today But if you do that you’ll be missing the world
Because it doesn’t stop turning whatever you heard
If you do that you’ll be missing the world
You have to get up get out and get gone
Yeah get up get out and have some fun
You have to get up get out and get gone
Yeah get up get out and get it on (on, on, on)
Get up get out and get gone (gone, gone)
You have to get up get out and get living
Yeah this is really it So you know how it is
Wake up feeling gray
Nothing much to think and nothing much to say
Don’t want to talk don’t want to try
Don’t want to think don’t want to know
Who what where when or why Oh but you do that and you’re missing the world
Yeah it’s happening right now whatever you heard
You do that and you’re missing the world
You have to get up get out and get gone
Yeah get up get out and have some fun
You have to get up get out and get gone
Yeah get up get out and get it on (on, on, on)
Get up get out and get gone
You have to get up get out and get living
Yeah this is really it

Published by mattsnyder1970

Matt Snyder has been making a dent in the creative community in North Eastern Pennsylvania since 1988. He’s been involved in showcasing his art in Exhibits in area Galleries & Spaces as well as online. Mr. Snyder is a real renaissance man. He doesn’t just dabble in the fine arts but has been known to grace the following kinds of things with his presence: Live Sound Mixing, Radio Production, Television Production, Short Films(Acting/Editing/Writing/Directing), Animations, Costume Character Performance, Dance, Music, Djembe Drumming, Theater (Writing/Acting/Directing/Props Management/Stage Management), Self Published Comics & Zines, Written & Slammed Performance Poetry, Sculpting Animal Figurines, Designing Tee Shirts, Photography Film & Digital, Painting (Acrylics), Drawing (Pen & Ink, Pastel, Colored Pencil, Sharpies, Crayons), Mixed Media, Collage, Paper Art, The Brooklyn Art Library & The Sketchbook Project, Blue Turtle ComiX, Just an Average Day Comic, Toxic Shock & Other Abnormalities of the Inner Being Zine as well as the culinary arts. His passion is the arts, his life is as a married humanitarian bisexual politically unaffiliated pacifist working as a Digital Preservation Archivist since 1999. Matt currently resides in an apartment with his equally creative wife of 7 years ,Jess and their cat Nigel.

9 thoughts on “Song Lyric Sunday (Two Gut Punches)…

  1. The video for Let You Down makes the lyrics so much more heartbreaking.

    And this…

    “But you don’t ever hear my words
    You don’t wanna know my hurt, yet
    Let me guess you want an apology, probably”

    …could be said of so many parent/child relationships since forever.

    Excellent share. 👍👍

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  2. Welcome to Song Lyric Sunday. You did pick two very real songs. It’s interesting, I read the lyrics first on the first song, then watched the video. I was surprised it was a conversation between father and son. I hope your dad had a chance to apologize before he passed. This relationship sounds like the one I have with my mom right now. I’m in my 60’s and nothing ever changed between us in all these years. I finally walked away for the last time over a year ago. Life is too short. As your next song illustrates so well. Life is going on out there even as I sit her typing. Excellent selections for the prompt, Matt. Looking forward to what you choose for next week!

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  3. Yeah let you down was noted prior to my dad getting sick. We were finally after 4 decades on good terms from January to Easter of 2019. That Easter being the only holiday in years when I didn’t want to leave so early. When he got sick and chose hospice and died in early August it was rough to see him suffer but when he passed an extremely huge burden was lifted off my shoulders. My dad and I were never close, even as a kid. My grief stages over his passing compared to my Mom who died in 2002 were not as agonizing.

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