My attempts at renewal
are promptly rescinded
you people he says
give me the same shit as she did
forever in denial
* Trying my damndest to apologize to my Dad for any rude behavior I may have caused him over the years, not that it’s necessary because he was determined by my therapist to be the underlying fuel to at least the bulk of my anxiety issues. But after being sick a week I just felt the need to I don’t know forgive and forget but he still managed to twist my apology into an attack, into an argument and revealed in the process that essentially his marriage to my late Mother was total shit. A sham. They probably should’ve never married, my Mom may have been closeted as well. That was never revealed by her but she did always say everyone had the gay gene in them. And he eventually told me he caught her in a same sex affair. So as it seems I inherited the gay/mental illness gene from my Mom and the fiery seething anger/mental illness from him.