Word Wednesday: Magnanimous…

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An Anagramatic Poem

MAGNANIMOUS

Amigo, 

I am 
A gunman
Among
 sin

I am
Amusing

An 
onus 
man

A 
smug 
man

Minus
Ammo

I am an anus

I can only do so much…

A found poem written for my wife who is currently on a bit of a downward spiral, I hope and pray that she doesn’t find herself hospitalized again. Marriage can be challenging, marriage to a very unstable person is even more so. And yet here we are, about to celebrate 10 years married. I pray that there is more than 10 more. I wish she was able to find balance in her head, I deal with my own demons and yet God gives me the grace to lay them aside to be her rock.

Darkness will fall on the city
It seems to follow you too
And though you don't ask for pity
There's nothin' that you can do

A dark light, a darkness never ending
A dark light, the devil gets his due
A dark night, is everywhere descending
A dark light, is coming for you 

Though you may be pure of heart and free of sin
And though you have been chosen to begin
And yet you must be worthy of the prophecy
But seek and you shall find your destiny 

If never I met you
I'd never have seen you cry
If not for our first "Hello"
We'd never have to say goodbye  

Ooh, remember when you smile so bright
Raise my heart up to my throat
Ooh, sure took hard times to drag me down
So darlin' brighten up all of my hopes 

You still matter to me
And that's the only reason I need to get by
You still matter to me, yes you do 

Everybody's got a reason to live, baby
Everybody's got a dream and a hunger inside 

It hurts so much inside, your telling me goodbye
You want to be free
And knowin' that you're gone and leavin' me behind
I gotta make you see, gotta make you see
I gotta make you see
That I still love you, I love you
I really, I really love you, I still love you 

Darkness will fall on the city
a darkness never ending
Though you may be pure of heart and free of sin
I'd never have seen you cry
Raise my heart up to my throat
You still matter to me
Everybody's got a reason to live
I gotta make you see
That I still love you

copyrights: 1974, 1976, 1978, 1981, 1987
Artists: KISS & Peter Criss

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Word Wednesday: Too many unanswered questions…

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When Mom found out she had Cancer, she wailed "Why me ?"
You had no answers to give, although you lessened her pain
by subduing her brain yet she suffered for a bit
When Dad couldn't fight off infection
He gave up
You took him quicker than Mom

Why didn't Mike or Kyle or Joy live to see 21
Why didn't Glenn or Todd or Jose or Kelly live to see 40

Why are some people mauled or shot or burned or chopped ?
Victims of...
Serial Killers
Gangs
Mass shootings/bombings
hate crime
torture
Planes/Trains/Automobile/Boat accidents
drowning
animal attacks
amusement/water park rides
disease
suicide
Why can't we all just die peacefully ?

Or

Why can't we all be survivors ?

I fear the unknown
I fear no longer existing
As a human being
you use emotions
and tastes
and smells
and feelings
you figure things out
as
a spirit
you stay behind and haunt ?
Or become someone's guardian angel ?
I believe in God and an afterlife
but isn't both heaven & hell a bit overcrowded ?
Or because there is no vessel for the spirit
the energy just exists
or does it ?

I have pondered both death and the thought of no longer existing
for decades. 
Will I be reunited with family in the afterlife
or stay with my wife
just writing these words
brings about a terrifying feeling
of 
unanswered questions
questions my therapist suggests should remain as such
I shouldn't dwell on the past 
nor should I fear the future
I should live, in the here and now
if I ever had a life goal
it is that
and to
be grateful
for the life I continue to grow in
and find my purpose